My Story
I remember the moment I lost my natural innocence and joy.
By the time I was 8 years old, I no longer felt protected by the adults around me. My environment didn’t feel emotionally or physically safe. I felt all alone in a world that I had no idea how to navigate on my own.
My childhood was over and it was time to grow up… fast. I quickly learned how to survive by suppressing and hiding all the vulnerable and tender parts of myself. Only to discover later, that by restraining these parts of myself, I was also robbing myself of the joy, inspiration, and fulfillment that was naturally me.
As a young child I felt wild and free to express the pure nature of my being. But as I grew up, I identified more and more with the part of myself that protected me and kept me safe.
My innocent joyful nature disappeared only to show up again when life went my way and vanish when it didn’t. It was replaced by long periods of emptiness, numbness, despair, grief, fear, confusion, frustration, and feeling lost.
But all along there was this faint whisper saying “remember me” and gently guiding me.
Something deep within me knew to listen, to follow an unfamiliar path, and to persevere no matter what. One day, after a long and arduous journey, I found my way back home to my True Self.
I realized the connection with this deeper aspect of Self is the birthplace of my; joy, innocence, belonging, strength, courage, confidence, peace of mind, creativity, passion, sense of fulfillment, connection, love, imagination, dreams, wholeness, safety, worthiness, clarity, inner knowing, truth, wisdom, and all my unique gifts that I’m meant to share with the world.
Happiness was once my goal, something to be attained from things outside of myself. Not knowing that everything I was looking for, was within me all along.
This isn’t just my story,
it’s our story.
Your circumstances and details may be different, but for one reason or another, you have buried parts of your Self beneath layers and layers of protection.
Maybe because you didn't feel seen, understood, and emotionally supported. Possibly you were told to grow up when you spent time day dreaming or in your imagination. Perhaps you felt abandoned when you showed your innocence, your vulnerability, and tried to express your tender loving heart. It may be you felt rejected when you showed your uniqueness and individuality. It could be you felt punished when you tried to express your raw and real emotions.
When you don’t feel safe, your mind becomes your greatest protector. You use our intellect as a way to control your environment and become a version of yourself that fits into the world you live in. Unfortunately protecting yourself in this way comes at a great cost.
You hide your innocence and Real Self in an inner world, for only you to see. Like a secret that isn't safe to share. But like all secrets, you start to feel shame around what we’re hiding. A method that was once used as self preservation has now manufactured an unconscious belief that these parts of ourselves are somehow bad or wrong.
Joy is my natural state and my birthright.
All I had to do was be the radiant expression my Soul was born to be, and you can too.
Eventually, we forget our innocence and how to access it.
Now this inner world is a place that hides your shame causing you to eventually reject those parts of yourself all together. Over time, you lose connection with the very nature of who and what we truly are. You completely identify with the character you created and a more socially acceptable version of yourself.
In other words, our innocence and joy is an attribute of our True Self and the very nature of our Soul. We’ve learned how to dim the radiance of our Soul in order to keep it hidden and safe from the threatening world around us.
As a result, we’ve forgotten the truth of who we are. This leaves us feeling empty, numb, and heavy with grief; while longing for the day we experience our natural state of joy, passion, love, belonging, a sense of fulfillment, and purpose. Yearning to feel fully alive.
It became my personal mission to find my way back to the innocence and joy I felt as a child.
To feel safe enough to walk through this world without hiding who and what I truly am. To freely be an expression of my True Self. To claim my sense of belonging in the world. To honor myself in every way as the Divine being that I am. To embrace every bit of my human nature. To love the graceful and messy journey that is uniquely and perfectly mine.
Eventually, I had the revelation that I wasn’t on a path of personal transformation just for myself, but for all the other people out there struggling as I was. I was embarking in a “Masters class“ so that I could be a guide and assist others on their journey home to their True Self.
If you see yourself in my journey…
Emotional Transformation doesn't have to be overwhelming, intimidating, or scary.